My personal hole..

So, this weeks writing challenge is: 

Fit to Write – http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/08/12/writing-challenge-health/

We have all gone through challenges, whether it is physical or emotional, there are challenges which most of us must over come at one time or another.

I read a post from a friend today that stated that she had been unjustly accused of something to which she had nothing to do with… Has that ever happened to you?

I can tell you that it probably happens to more of us than you aware. You, or someone close to you, is accused of something for which they had no knowledge and were definitely not involved with. What do you do? How do you approach this? Do you crawl into a hole and hope no one notices or do you hold your head high and rely on the strong circle of friends and family to get you through?

I crawled into a hole and it was not a great place to be. Newspaper articles appeared defining the atrocity to which I had, unknowingly, participated. Accusatory phone calls abounded and people to whom I had had a close relationship, stopped speaking to me. It was definitely a dark time in my life and it wasn’t even me who was being accused, but a close family member. Either way, I fell in to the hole and refused to emerge.

As more and more people began to read and hear about the accusations and the subsequent legal consequences, I buried myself deeper and deeper, refusing to acknowledge the possibility of truth or my possible part in these accusations. It took years before I was even able to accept that there may be truth in the accusations. 

After much sole searching, I began to evolve. What did, or did not, happen had nothing to do with me. I did not participate in the supposed “wrong-doing” and I would have to hold my head high and “move on”. Was it easy? Absolutely not! I still cringe when the subject is broached or if I allow myself to think about those horrible times. I have had conversations with the other people involved and have come to terms with the past. 

“We can’t take responsibility for other people’s action, but we are 100% responsible for our reaction to other people. Also, we cannot blame other people for us not keeping our side of the street clean.” (this was taken from one of my favorite sights of inspiration and love – https:\thedailylove.com) and I work hard at trying to remember this on a daily basis.

I am fit to write! I have a valid place in this universe! The past does not define me and in order to heal, I must move on and become the person that I am meant to be!

I am just now discovering that I LOVE to write and that, through writing, I can come to terms with all the challenges that live has, and will, present to me. I hope that my writing brings joy and peace to others, but if it doesn’t, then it will bring joy and peace to me.

I hope that you are all able to find peace and joy in your life and that you will find your outlet for letting go and moving on. Writing is becoming my vessel and I can only pray that it will become my future.

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